My life was forever changed when I was diagnosed with my first brain tumor. I was experiencing severe headaches, and I knew something was wrong. When the results of the MRI came back and the doctor told me, I wanted to scream. I was devastated and cried uncontrollably. “Why me, Lord?” I yelled. But after a few days, I heard the Holy Spirit say “Why not you?” He told me He’d always be with me and not to be discouraged. Since then, I’ve had a peace that is hard to explain.
The Bible says that it passes all understanding, and in my case, it really does. I went through the surgery. I woke up temporarily blind, but my sight returned and the surgery was deemed a success. I had a second chance at life.
However, it is now eight years later, and the tumor has returned. With a vengeance. The tumor has disabled me, both physically and mentally. I am unable to work. There have been countless time when I didn’t know how I would survive with this pain. As I await the next surgery, I don’t know my future prognosis. I will either be cured here on earth or be totally restored in heaven. I know He has promised to be with me no matter the result. God’s grace and mercy have brought me through all my burdens and battles so far. While my life has been dramatically altered and not in the way that I would have scripted, it is now my goal to be a living testimony for Jesus. To share what He has done in my life.
I feel, as a Christian, it is my duty to encourage others going through something like this. So I’ve gotten very involved with a couple brain tumor support groups, including one on the Internet. I tell them about my faith, share that I’m not afraid, and let them see that if you have faith, you can stand strong in the face of great adversity.